Sunday, December 27, 2009

724 am December 24

I wake up startled and thinking of you. I have to remember where I am, in a different room at my parent's with my dog beside me instead of you. I instantly remember that the last time I slept in this room was the last time you would ever sleep in this room, in this bed. Right freaking beside me. and now as the sun comes up, thats all I long to be, right beside you. I miss your touch horribly. I miss your hands and the the way they reached for mine. I miss how sure we were of each other's love. I miss everything.
I love you baby. Be Strong! Love Mike

This is the sticky note he left on our kitchen counter when he went back in July. How long baby? How strong can I be?

I love you, I love you, I LOVE YOU.


jenny said...

I know the holidays must be stupidly bittersweet. You are, as always, a picture of grace.

And Mike can't be anything but proud of you.

TheMunchkinMom said...

That brings tears to my eyes. I hope the holidays were happy for you, it is what you truly deserve.